"Logan House: Growth, faith, boundaries, gratitude and moving forward"

Logan House: A Place of Reckoning, Growth, and Real Recovery

I never imagined I’d end up in rehab. No one does. But when I arrived at Logan House, I knew one thing—I couldn’t keep living the way I was. My life had been shaped by addiction, bad choices, and an endless cycle of running from myself. I convinced myself I was in control, that I wasn’t as bad as others, but deep down, I knew the truth.

Recovery wasn’t just about getting off drugs. It was about learning how to live without them. It was about figuring out who I was without the chaos, the numbing, the escape. And that was terrifying.

At first, I still carried my old ways with me. I wanted to change, but I also wanted to hold onto the things that had destroyed me. I wasn’t using, but I was still finding ways to manipulate, to test boundaries. I learned quickly that stopping the behavior wasn’t enough—I had to change how I thought.

The hardest part was being honest—with myself and others. I had spent years justifying my actions, blaming my past, avoiding responsibility. But real recovery doesn’t start until you face yourself. Until you admit no one else is responsible for your choices. That honesty, painful as it was, started to set me free.

Faith and Recovery: Letting God In

I had always believed in God, but in my addiction, I kept Him at a distance. I was ashamed, convinced I had messed up too badly to be forgiven.

Something changed at Logan House. Maybe it was the quiet moments, the space to reflect. Maybe it was the people I met, the conversations that made me think deeper. But for the first time in years, I opened myself up to faith—not in a forced way, but in a way that was personal.

I started to see I wasn’t alone in this. That I didn’t have to carry my past on my own. That grace was real, even for someone like me. And when I let go of control, when I actually surrendered, things began to change.

Recovery wasn’t just about fixing myself anymore. It was about becoming who I was always meant to be.

Boundaries: The Hardest but Most Important Lesson

One of the biggest lessons I learned at Logan House was the importance of boundaries.

In rehab, you meet people with stories just as painful as yours. It’s easy to form connections, to feel like you finally belong. But here’s the hard truth: not everyone is there for the right reasons. And even those who are still have their own battles.

I had to learn that while it was great to meet people and share experiences, I was there for me. I wasn’t there to save anyone. I wasn’t there to get caught up in distractions. I had spent too many years focusing on others, using their problems to avoid my own.

Boundaries weren’t just about keeping toxic people at a distance. They were about knowing my own limits, knowing when to step back, when to say no. That lesson didn’t just help me in rehab—it became one of the most important tools in my recovery outside of it.

Facing a Life-Changing Moment: My Heart Surgery

While at Logan House, I found out I needed heart surgery. It wasn’t just a minor issue—it was something that could have ended my life.

I had spent years destroying my body, thinking I was invincible. But now, I had to face reality. My past choices had real consequences. My body had been through hell, and it wouldn’t just bounce back overnight.

But the support I received at Logan House wasn’t just professional—it was real. The staff, the people around me, they showed up for me. They reminded me why I was fighting for my life in the first place.

That experience could have broken me. But instead, it became a turning point. I realized that recovery wasn’t just about getting clean—it was about fighting for my life.

The Real Work Starts When You Leave

One of the biggest mistakes people make after rehab is thinking they’re done. That just because they spent time in a program, they’re free from addiction, free from the struggles that got them there.

That’s not how it works.

I had to remind myself that I had been using drugs—or at least living with the mindset of an addict—for a long time. It didn’t just disappear because I spent a few months clean. I had to keep working. I had to build new habits, new routines. I had to stay accountable. Because addiction doesn’t just leave you. You have to fight for recovery every single day.

Leaving Logan House was both exciting and terrifying. I felt stronger than ever, but I knew the real test was outside those walls. The temptations, the old triggers, the people who doubted my change—it was all still there. But this time, I was different. I had the tools to handle it.

Gratitude and Moving Forward

Recovery isn’t perfect. Some days are harder than others. Some days, old thoughts creep in. But now, I have something I never had before—clarity. I know who I am, and I know where I’m going. I know that every single day, I have a choice. And I choose to keep going.

Logan House wasn’t just a place that helped me get clean. It was a place that helped me find myself. It was where I learned that I’m stronger than my past. That I’m capable of change. That my life isn’t defined by my mistakes, but by what I do next.

If you’re thinking about recovery, here’s my advice: don’t wait until you’re forced into it. Don’t wait until rock bottom hits again. Choose it now. Because once you really commit, the right environment can make all the difference.

Logan House was part of that difference for me.

And I will always be grateful.