"Seemingly retaliated against"

I have schizophrenia and often get episodes of psychosis. At first, the RBWH was quite helpful and helped keep me safe when I was having particularly bad episodes. (I also appreciate the help of the PAH where I was once brought). I can manage most of my psychosis at home and only seek help when my life is in serious danger. However, after I made a complaint about my involuntary outpatient treatment, I believe I received retaliation which resulted in me being permanently refused help at the RBWH and presumably also at all the other public hospitals in the state.

I feel they subjected me to harmful involuntary treatment for years. I believe this treatment has caused me severe, irreversible brain damage including the loss of the ability to feel pleasure. Also resulted in gastrointestinal and movement disorders. Before strangers couldn't tell I had an illness, now I feel it's obvious to anyone who sees me on the street. My practitioners seemingly kept ignoring my pleas so I felt obliged to make an official complaint. I didn't think they would take it personally, but I believe my psychiatrist certainly did. I feel they retaliated against me by writing seemingly  disparaging lies about me in my medical record and even mislabelled me with a condition I believe I had never been assessed for and of which I do not display a single symptom. I believe it's due to this apparent retaliation that I have been refused help from the ED at the RBWH on two occasions. On one of these occasions I suffered avoidable permanent health damage. It really upsets me how much my psychiatrist seemingly disregards my health and safety, and how little I can do about it. Due to my illness, it is a constant struggle just to stay alive, and now without access to healthcare, I don't believe I will live as long as I had planned.

Private hospitals are expensive, but even if I were able to pay, they do not offer emergency mental health care (it takes about a week to be admitted and even then they don't treat people with acute psychosis as I understand it). So now I feel I have nowhere to go for help when I need it, and I feel I will likely die early because of this. I'm only young, so I feel I might miss out on quite a lot of years. In my opinion, I can't believe this is happening to me just because, in my opinion, of one spiteful individual, although I guess it seems the whole system is complicit in turning a blind eye to what I believe is their misconduct.