"Autistic in ED"

I attended SCGH ED. It wasn’t my choice. My neighbour called the police after they yelled at me. The police forced me to attend because I was home alone and seemed upset. But I was upset because my neighbour yelled at me and called the police. I had to wait 14 hours in ED. It made me more and more upset to be there. I couldn’t speak and was crying and crying. I recall the nurses told me I was a waste of hospital resources and I should go somewhere else. I couldn’t go anywhere else. The police wouldn’t let me. Also, my medical file says I have autism but they told me I probably diagnosed myself off YouTube when I didn’t. I recall they told me it was stupid to be upset about noises and people. I know that but they upset me anyway. I don’t like police and I don’t like hospitals.

The doctor finally came but there was no bed in ED. I had to sit on the floor. I could hear the nurses seemingly snickering about me. I felt they were mad too because I couldn’t tell them my name. I showed them my wrist bracelet but they kept saying I had to speak. I couldn’t speak because of my autism. Everyone I saw was mean for no reason. Then they locked me inside the mental ward. I wanted to call my parent but they wouldn’t let me. I couldn’t leave they said. I tried to open the door but they yelled at me. I hated it there because they took my clothes and kept yelling at me and I was locked inside with other people I didn’t know. I was so scared. I feel the nurses I saw are bad but the doctors I saw are worse. They came the next day and again yelled at me because I couldn’t speak. I couldn’t open the water bottles and had to drink out of the bathroom. I couldn’t get any breakfast because they said I had to ask for it but I couldn’t. I just wanted to go home. They made me take medication when I didn’t want it. It made me sick and they said if I didn’t try harder they would give me ECT. I don’t want ECT.

My parent finally found me and told them to let me go. They wouldn’t let me go until my parent talked to the doctors. I believe I would be locked up forever and made to take medication and have ECT if they didn’t rescue me. But I feel the hospital and nurses and doctors shouldn’t have done that to me. I have autism not psychiatric problems. I didn’t do anything wrong but I felt they didn’t care.

It seemed the staff I saw hate autistic people and I believe they want them to never come to SCGH ever again. Well I will never go there ever again. Not even if I am hurt and in an ambulance. I would rather be dead on the pavement. I will never go near police or hospitals again. I hate them. I hate being autistic because in my experience, everything I saw thinks I am lying even though they are the ones who diagnosed me. I am never going there again. I would rather be dead. Never ask for help ever again.