"Care for mental health in ED"

Went to ED because of my mental health. Was seems straight away. Given Valium. Waited a long time to be seen. Requested to leave as I was just wanting to go home to bed. This request was refused. I asked about 18 times to leave and made it clear that I was going to adhere to my already existing safety plan. When I asked them if there was a compulsory treatment order 18 times, I was never given a yes or no. I kept asking to leave as my understanding was that I was not on any order to stay. This was refused. I had about 7 nurses all standing around me and 2 security guards. The doctor wouldn’t tell me if there was a treatment order in effect. Was refused what I felt was my right to leave. 

I was then told I would be strapped to a bed and if I refused would be forced to. I begged them not to do this because of the PTSD and trauma from this historically. I believe it was not considered. Nurse came to me and waved a piece of paper at me and said they have it now, with what looked like a smile on their face.

I then complied and was strapped to the bed. I was injected with something in my leg. I still don’t know what it was. I was then taken to a ward where two nurses said if I had these 3 pills they would let me out the straps. I was crying because it was traumatising so I believe I had no choice. I then woke up and was taken to a room with 7 people, 4 of which I felt were throwing questions left right and centre. I then was able to leave. I was sedated for 2 days afterwards. I don’t even know what they gave me. 

It was one of the most traumatic experiences I have had in my life. The audience in ED, being injected without being told what it was. Given meds without being told what it was. 

I will never ever access health services again. I am so traumatised from that experience. I’m shaking as write this, I’ve been having nightmares and can’t sleep much when I do and can’t eat or talk to anyone. I will never trust anyone ever again if I need help.